WHY

When I was a child, I always thought that men and women end up happily ever after because they love each other. Period. No ifs, no buts. No pressure and no drama. No conditions. But as I grow up and witness the different love stories of the people around me and even of my own, there comes up a million complications that break a happy couple who love each other. Why? Why can't it be based on the love which was the foundation? Why does there always have to be something that complicate everything and break up a strong bond? Why does something be allowed to break something as strong as LOVE? 💔

I guess this is it...

I thought I was okay. I thought I was moving on. I thought I have accepted what has happened. But then I saw his Facebook and Instagram posts last night. It's not actually clear but I think I know what it means. They say that women's intuitions are always right. But this is the time I am hoping that I am wrong.

I guess this is it. A clear sign that I should truly let him go. That I should let go of all the hope that I am still nurturing in my heart. I would be a hypocrite if I say I'm happy for him. But I love him so I have to accept that--that I'm no longer the one who makes him happy.💔

Coping and Hoping...

It has been a day after my birthday. I'm kinda glad that the "tragedy" happened close to my birthday because it somehow gave him a reason to text me. I'm glad he did. I'm glad that we got to talk and exchange a few texts yesterday. I'm quite happy with that. 

I still miss him though. I can never and will never deny that.

I've been hearing a variety of presumptions, assumptions and opinions from people as to why he did what he did. I like some of it, but not most of if. I try to pretend that I agree to everything that they say and just nod my head. But deep inside i'm hurting even more when i hear the things i don't want to hear. There may be truth to it or none, I will never know, but I try not to focus on it because I don't want to be angry and bitter. 

Maybe I love him too much that I choose to believe what I want to believe or maybe because I know everything was actually true. Or maybe I'm just too scared if there was "another truth". 

It rained hard today. I hope he didn't have a hard time. I hope he didn't get stuck in traffic. I hope he didn't get hungry and too tired. I hope he had a nice day. I hope he's happy. And I hope he misses me too.

He's always on my mind. He never left. Even my heart. There are times when I'm really tempted to text him, but I am suddenly reminded that he wouldn't want that; that it might just disturb him or whatnot. It wouldn't make him happy. 

Sometimes I just daydream, relive the days we were together, imagine that we still call each other "baby"...all of it just to brighten up my day. But on the other hand, it just makes the feeling worse as I am reminded that it will never happen again.

This is gonna be a long and lonely journey which I have to endure and take on my own.

Trying to be strong...

It has been quite a long while since I last posted here. A LOT of things has happened. A lot of joyful and memorable moments i have spent with him...and his family. But now, here I am, left alone again. I guess I just have to face the devastating fact that I was wrong when I told myself that he's the one.

I can honestly say that it was the best 2-3 years of my life (including the time he started texting and courting me). It was May 17, 2014 around 8-8:30pm when I stopped counting. Up until now I honestly couldn't understand how that particular reason could make him give up just like that after everything we have been through. It was so sudden. It felt like a thief broke into my house and just ransacked everything, this time ransacked my heart. It is still so painful that I couldn't even share the details to the closest people in my life because I know that I'll just break down and feel the hurt all over again. 

It is still so painful to accept that no matter what we've been through, no matter what we've shared, no matter  how much I am hurting and no matter how much I love him,  it all weren't enough to save US. That after all those things, it wouldn't change his mind. It wouldn't change the fact that he's gone.

But i don't blame him. I may want what's best for him, but i may not know what's best for him. I  may want him happy, but I just don't know how to. I tried my best, but I guess I just fell short.  He 's a grown man, he knows what he wants; he knows what makes him happy. I just have to accept that it isn't me. 

I won't deny the obvious fact that I still love him so much. So much that it hurts. I can literally feel the pain in my heart , the weakness of my body and the difficulty to breathe. Sometimes I just have to stop doing what I'm doing because I just couldn't go on.  I sometimes find myself crazy because  there are times when tears just suddenly come running down my cheeks. I try to put a happy face but my puffy and swollen eyes always give away what I am going through. My love for him never changed despite what has happened. 

I miss him terribly. I miss that way he looks at me, the way he smells, the way he  smiles, the way he drives, the way he parks, the way he walks, the way he reaches out his hand to hold mine, the way he makes an effort to talk to me,  the way he looks up my window after walking me to our door, and the list goes on. I miss everything about him.

Pathetic as it may seem but I have to admit that I am still hoping. Hoping that one day we shall meet again and things will work out. And then one day he'll realize he misses me and remember that he loves me, or that he once loved me. But I am also open to the reality that all these may just be pointless dreams,  meaningless imaginations , desperate assumptions and senseless apparitions. 

I am writing this not for people to pity me. I just believe that for me, writing is a good way of venting things without being interrupted. That i may somehow share everything to somebody, even to a stranger, if ever there is even somebody who will take time to read this. And i also want this to be a reminder for me in the future. That when i look back, i will not regret that fact that i never up on the person i love. That this blog will remind me that there may be days which are impossible to survive in, but brighter days are yet to come.

They say people always leave. But i think they may come back. Or maybe another person will be willing to  accompany you and stay. 💔

Experiencing the Presence of God in the Hands of 3 Hold Uppers in a Cab

July 13, 2012, Friday – I rode a cab along Makati Ave. corner Sto. Tomas Street at exactly 10:35pm to go home. I decided to take one because I was too tired to commute and I wanted to go home fast.  As soon as I sat inside the vehicle, I texted the taxi’s name and plate number to Daniel which was Paland Taxi PNT 858. I decided not to turn the volume of my phone up. Just exactly when I placed my phone on my side, things went so fast.

It started when we were still along Makati Ave. before reaching Paseo De Roxas Street. There was suddenly a man hiding on the front seat. He just went over the seat and attacked me while holding a long pointed object. God impressed on my instinct to just bow and hug myself for a little protection. I was literally shaking and I literally couldn’t breathe. It was the first time I experienced REAL and FIRST HAND fear. Fear of the highest extent. The man grabbed my bag and I voluntarily gave it while handing him my other (inexpensive) phone. He told me to remove the sim card immediately. Then the driver told me to transfer to the other side (behind the driver’s seat where the door was child-locked) by passing in front of the man beside me. Before going up the flyover at Buendia, the cab stopped to pick up another man who was waiting. He was short and stout and I guess was in his 50’s. I was crying and pleading that they wouldn’t hurt me. The man beside me just kept telling me not to worry because they wouldn’t hurt me as long as I stay calm and not fight back. I prayed aloud with them hearing it. I prayed, “Lord Jesus, hawakan Niyo po ang mga puso nitong mga mama na ito na hindi po nila ako saktan at ibaba na po nila ako agad.” Then I handed them the last 3 Tagalog Gospel Tracts that I had in my bag. It was very traffic in EDSA which made the suffering longer. But I kept praying. I never stopped praying.

I praise and thank God for giving me peace and presence of mind the whole time. I tried getting as many information from the man who was beside me. He told me his name is Ben and that he was 41 years old. He confessed that he really didn’t want to do it, but he had to because his 7-year old son has leukemia and that his wife keeps nagging him whenever he doesn’t bring home money. He was complaining about the government, about rich people not helping poor and unemployed people. He told me they thought I was rich and that it was payday so they decided to victimize me. He was very apologetic that they had to do it to me. He kept telling me to apologize to my family for him for doing this. He just needed the money. He promised me that he wouldn’t hurt me as long as I cooperate with them and not cause a scandal. He promised me that he would read the Gospel Tract I gave him when he gets home and that He would one day thank me for giving him that. He asked me to pray for him and his family. I assured him of God’s love and providence as long as we trust and obey Him. I told him that it’s not yet too late to change and that he can still find a job despite his age which he never stopped complaining about. I kept talking to them about God. The driver just kept quiet while the other man in front told me to shut up and kept asking me about the pin codes of my ATM cards. I don’t know if a single word of what Mang Ben said was true.

As the whole thing was transpiring, I was doing my best to keep my other phone. They didn’t see it and I praise God they didn’t hear it when it was ringing. I compressed it under my left thigh so that they wouldn’t see it. The radio in the taxi was pretty loud so they didn’t hear it that much when it rang. But when I heard the ringing, I kept talking and babbling random things just so they wouldn’t hear it ringing. I feared that they would get my hard-earned cellphone and that they would hurt me for hiding it from them (which may even lead to worse things). I pretended that I have this disease that my skin gets very itchy all over whenever I get nervous. So when I was pretending to scratch my entire body, I was discreetly turning off my cellphone and hiding it inside my pants. I tried hiding it on my behind but I thought that they would easily see it when I get down. So despite how disgusting and unhygienic it was, I hid it inside my underwear as though it was a sanitary napkin. When I finally placed it there, my feeling lightened a little.

We stopped at a BDO ATM somewhere in Cubao. They tried to check my BDO account. Good thing that it was the BDO card that I got from my previous work which is now closed. Then they got my BPI. We stopped at BPI along Quezon Ave. They tried it. It was my payroll account. I just praise and thank God that my salary wasn’t transferred to our accounts yet. PRAISE GOD. The short and stout man was very dismayed when he saw my BPI card empty. I didn’t tell him it was my payroll account.  As the man got down the cab to go to a BPI ATM, I sang loudly, “God is so good. God is so good. God is so good, is so good to me.” As I finished singing, Mang Ben told the driver, “Wag na natin siya ilayo. Ibaba na natin siya sa sakayan. Mabait toh.” Then he turned to me and told me, “Wag ka mag-alala iha ah, ibaba ka namin sa sakayan at hindi ka na namin ilalayo. Mag relax ka nalang jan at baka isugod ka pa namin sa ospital pag may nangyari sayo.  Ang bait bait mo. Parang kang anghel. Buti hindi ka na lumaban at baka nasaktan ka pa namin.”

It took about 1 ½ hours before they dropped me off in the middle of Quezon Ave. near Sgt. Esguerra. I crossed the highway.  As I was walking, I came across a woman whose name is Aling Joan. She helped and accompanied me looking for a police. We arrived at Mercury Drugstore at Quezon Ave. corner Sct. Borromeo Street. No matter how good and innocent she was, I found it hard to trust people already that time. So I told her that I will just wait inside Mercury Drugstore. I went inside and asked the security guard for a telephone I could use while I was crying incessantly. They allowed me to go inside their office. The Assistant Manager of that branch, Mr. Mhel, accompanied me while I was waiting for Kuya Renjay, Tito Val and Debra to fetch me. Sir Mhel advised me to call BPI immediately so they could block my account at once. And surely I did. I talked to a certain Paul from BPI Express Banking 89-100 and he patiently helped me block my account and took the initiative to have my card replaced immediately. Sir Mhel and the security guard on duty that time took care of me and even gave me a bottle of water. They allowed me to sit and wait inside the office. They coordinated with my brother about the exact address of the branch. At around 12:30am, Kuya Renjay, Tito Val and Debra arrived.

What a relief I felt when I saw my brother, my uncle and my cousin. They hugged me instantly when they saw me. Debra cried with me as she hugged me and comforted me by telling me she knows exactly how I feel because she just underwent a similar situation just this week as well. When we got home, Mommy, Lolo, Lola, Mama Aida and Daniel were all there expectantly waiting for me all red and teary-eyed. I felt the relief that came upon them when they saw me enter our door safe, sound and complete. I hugged each of them while all of us were crying. I believe those tears were a little of fear, but most of it were tears of thankfulness to God that I’m back home.

The whole experience taught and reminded me a lot of things. I learned that before riding a taxi, check all the parts of the car. NEVER EVER RIDE AN OLD AND BULOK TAXI!!! I learned to have someone (preferably a security guard) to accompany me when getting a cab.

I was reminded of the OVERWHELMING LOVE and CARE that my loved ones have for me. The time and effort that they sacrificed just to fetch me and assure that I’m already safe no matter how late it was already and no matter how far away they live. The anxiety it caused them and the efforts they made in reporting to radio stations. I am just truly blessed for having truly loving and caring people around me. I just couldn’t stop thanking God for them. They are truly the BEST BLESSINGS IN MY LIFE.

To all those who cried, worried, feared, prayed and thanked God with me, MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT PO FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

I was also reminded that despite these rampant crimes being done to innocent people by strangers, there are still a few good people who are willing to help without asking for anything in return. And that is what I learned through Aling Joan, Sir Mhel and the Security Guard. Even if they don’t know me, even if they could have had the chance to think that I could have been victimizing them, they still trusted me and helped me find my way.

But the most important lesson I learned is this—GOD ALWAYS WATCHES OVER HIS CHILDREN AND HE IS IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING. God just orchestrated everything and His timing is always perfect. The time that I bought those Gospel Tracts, the time that mom got home a bit late, the time that my brother woke up to attend our Family Bible Study at home, the time that our Family Bible Study started and ended a little late, the time that Daniel fell asleep early, but was awaken just in time, the time that Daniel called Mama Aida to ask if I was home, the time I called the house to tell them of my situation…EVERYTHING was just perfect timing.

I felt that, despite being in the midst of those perpetrators, God was with me the whole time. He was the One who gave me peace and presence of mind in the midst of that tragic event. He was the One who impressed in my mind and heart what to do and what to say. God gave me strength and courage. He allowed me to be in the hands of unprofessional hold uppers and didn’t allow them to touch and hurt me. I am just so overwhelmed with God’s UNFATHOMABLE LOVE and plans He has for His children.

I am reminded of the passage that we’ve been tackling in church these past few weeks which is Psalm 23 and it says,

¹ The Lord is my shepherd;
    I have all that I need.
² He lets me rest in green meadows;
    he leads me beside peaceful streams.
³     He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
    bringing honor to his name.
⁴ Even when I walk
    through the darkest valley,
I will not be afraid,
    for you are close beside me.
Your rod and your staff
    protect and comfort me.
⁵ You prepare a feast for me
    in the presence of my enemies.
You honor me by anointing my head with oil.
    My cup overflows with blessings.
⁶ Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
    all the days of my life,
and I will live in the house of the Lord
    forever.

 I want to believe that one of the reasons why God has allowed this to happen, aside from those I’ve mentioned earlier, is for those 3 men to know and hear about Him. They may not have the opportunity to listen and hear about God’s love for them despite their sinfulness. I want to believe that God used me for them to know about Him through what I said and through the Gospel Tracts that I gave them. As Romans 8:28 says, 

²⁸ And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

I also want to believe that God is teaching me about FORGIVENESS which I am still working on. He is teaching me to forgive these men in my heart no matter how much trauma and fear they’ve caused me. God reminded me of His great love and forgiveness towards all of us no matter how bad or how great our sins are. Therefore, we do not have the right not to forgive those who have sinned against us.

This has been a very memorable experience for me. Bottom line is, I am just so thankful to our Lord Jesus Christ, my Shepherd, Who comforted and protected me and Who just orchestrated everything to happen in His perfect timing.

3 months and counting...♥

My baby and I have been officially together for 3 months now. 3 months full of love, joy, laughter, some trials here and there and LOVE.♥ Until now I couldn't believe that a guy like him loves me, accepts me despite seeing and knowing my imperfections and persistently, gladly, untiringly gives so much effort for me even if I don't give as much as he does. I never thought that my dream of having a love like this would come true this soon. This is actually way beyond my dreams.

My fears and insecurities just fade away whenever I'm with him. Well, actually, just the fact that he is there for me takes away all the negative thoughts in my head. He never fails to make me feel joyful, thankful, beautiful and confident in his own simple ways. I see the sincerity of his love whenever I look into his adorable little eyes. His contagious smile always reminds me that there are so many reasons to be happy even if a lot of bad things are happening around me. Every word he says just assures me that everything is gonna be ok. His gentle voice whenever he speaks is just like music to my ears. His mere presence is basically a blessing to me--a gift that I never asked for; a reality that I thought would just happen in fairy tales.

Until now I kept asking what I did to deserve someone like him. I continually thank God each and every day for allowing me to love and be loved by someone like him. I know that 3 months is just part of the beginning..........of forever.♥

♥ MORE THAN A DREAM COME TRUE ♥

February 10 - I didn't expect that we would be watching "The Vow" on its first screening date! My baby is super sweet na pagbigyan ako even if I know that he isn't that much a fan of sad/drama movies. So, thank you baby! ♥ Then we had dinner at Max's Restaurant.

February 12 - My baby and I had a super mini merienda/refresher at Eskimo Bob with my mom. We walked around the mall until my mom decided to go to my titas. Baby and I had dinner at Cajun Red Rock. He made me play these 2 games on his cellphone na never ako nanalo. Pwede scrabble nalang forever? :p


February 14 - LOVE DAY ♥ We weren't able to plan something on this day because I'm on my day-off, but my baby has work. I told him my plan for the day was to go to the mall and walk around haha. I kept updating him about were I am, that I was already at the mall, etc. But what he didn't know was that I was on my way to go to where he would be meeting my mom. So when he got there, SURPRISE! ♥ Although we were together for less than an hour, I'm still so happy I got the chance to be with the love of my life on our first Valentines Day.


February 15 - 16 - My baby was super sweet to fetch me from work because I was too tired and it was already very late. He is always patient in waiting for me no matter how long. I love you baby! ♥

February 17 - 18 - One of the sweetest weekends of life. ♥ My baby and I, together with our moms, went to Chateau Royale. When we were on our way, we stopped over RSM, Tagaytay to have our lunch. When we got to our destination, we rested for a while and then went to Sonya's Garden to have dinner. I HAD A GREAT TIME. The next morning, my baby woke me up at around 6am so that we could go jogging. But we ended up walking majority of the time...because I was too weak. Haha! The four of us had our breakfast then got ready to leave. Before exiting Tagaytay, we stopped over Rowena's. Our moms bought pasalubongs then the two of them toured around inside the place while my baby and I waited for them in the car. We had lunch in my baby's home. :)
After bringing our moms home, baby and I went to Megamall to have a foot massage, dinner and bonding. Baby, thank you for still asking me out even if I know that you are already very tired from driving. I love you. ♥

Being with my baby has always been my dream. Being with our moms, seeing the two of them have fun in each other's company and having them approve and being happy for us are more than a dream come true. Everything is just too good to be true, even until now. I never expected all of these to be happening so soon. Indeed, God knows the desires of our hearts. And He gives us much more than what we ask for.

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February 20 - Baby didn't have work and my shift was only from 6am-2pm. We met up at Resorts World, watched "Unofficially Yours" (thank you baby for agreeing to watch it) and had dinner at Sizzlin' Pepper Steak. Then he brought me to Powerplant where mom was.


Even if I spent almost the whole week with him, I still continue looking forward for the next time that we would be together and get sad whenever we don't. I just couldn't get enough. I feel like a kid being given her favorite barbie doll and everything she likes whenever I'll be meeting up with him. ♥

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February 21 - My baby got a handwritten letter from their GM commending him for his excellent service. I'm so proud of him! Congratulations baby! God has truly blessed you with such great talent and skills! I love you forever.♥

After over a month...♥

January 11 - It was my day-off. I met up with my baby at Powerplant. I am still overwhelmed by the fact that he agreed to watch "A Mother's Story" with me. Then we had dinner at Chili's then grabbed a cup of Starbucks. That was one of our very heaviest meals hahaha.

January 12 - Baby fetched me from work and then we drove thru Mcdonals to buy Apple Pie ♥

January 13 - After my baby brought his mom to the hospital, he fetched me from our house and then brought me to work. After my duty, he still fetched me from work. He never fails to make me feel like a princess. ^_^ We tried Mercato. It was good. I had fun...because I was with my baby. ♥

January 14 and 15 - My love fetched me from work and then we drove thru Mcdonalds again. I forgot what we ordered. Haha :p

January 17 - My baby gave 2 very special surprises! :D Katy Perry concert tickets and a super cute Bunny case! :D I didn't expect any of those. I can say that he has improved A LOT when it comes to giving surprises. Congratulations baby! And thank youuuuu! ♥

January 18 - After work, we drove thru KFC and Starbucks. :)

January 19 - My baby bought me my favorite Starbucks drink when he fetched me from work. But I broke his heart when I didn't even greet him when I saw him. It was extremely very BAD of me. I admit I was so wrong. And until now I'm still sorry, baby. :( I promise that it will NEVER happen again. :'|

January 21 - I slept over at F1 because my schedule was very magulo. My baby fetched me around 8pm. We had dinner at Eat Well, bought by Cha Time (which we kind of regret buying haha) and passed by Kebab Kebab where my colleagues were. We didn't stay there for too long because baby had to go home since it's getting late. I had sooo much fun! :D ♥

January 22- One of our best dates ♥ My baby and I went to church. We wore the same kind of polo. :D We headed straight to MOA afterwards. Since we were very early for the concert, we walked around the mall first. Then we had dinner at Mann Hann. It was still about an hour or so before the concert starts but we decided to go there already. Thank God He made us go there already. If we have been there later, we wouldn't find seats for us. We saw some friends but weren't able to talk to them except for Angely Dub. I missed her! :D Later on, Chris, Daniel's friend, joined us also. We waited for more than 2 hours for the concert. But I didn't mind. Not even a minute. I was with the love of my life anyway. ♥ The concert was amazing. Katy Perry is A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!! Totally worth the wait. :)




January 25 - I had my interview at Makati Shangri-la (which didn't go well :|). While I was being interviewed, my baby patiently waited for me at the mall. Then he met with my mom. I met up with them afterwards. We brought my mom home and then we headed to Greenhills where his mom is. We had dinner at Cibo. Sooo fun! ♥

January 27 - Daniel brought me to his aunt's restaurant which was just very near my cousin's place. Small world! :D I met his mom's twin sister and some of his cousins. ♥

January 29 - My baby joined me to church and then we had dinner at Yakimix. ♥


February 1 - My baby and I had dinner at Claw Daddy's. I can say that it was our deepest and most dramatic conversations. :] Thank you baby! I love you. ♥

February 2 - Baby fetched me from work! Yey! ♥

February 3 - ♥ OUR 1ST MONTHSARY ♥ I thought we wouldn't see each other on this day because his day off was cancelled. But we did! Thank God! :D We walked around Greenbelt to look for a place to eat and finally he chose Mesa. Mesa is a great restaurant. It's one of the best restaurants we ate in. :) I gave him a card a very simple gift. I hope he likes it. ♥


It will take about 4 days or more before I be with my baby again. I miss him so much :(

Daniel, we have been official for a month and a few days and have been dating for over 6 months and I can say that I love you more each day. I will never grow tired of loving you. There are and there will continue to be obstacles along the way, but I don't mind as long as I go through them with you. ♥

Welcome 2012! :)

It has been exactly 6 months and 9 days since he came into my life. I've been extremely blessed for 6 months, 9 days and still counting. ♥

I'm so happy I got the chance to spend time with him the last few days of 2011. On December 27, he followed me and my friends to Starbucks, Rockwell. That was so sweet of him. I really appreciate it whenever he decides to meet up with me despite the distance and despite the very short time that we will be together. It was my first time to see him personally in eyeglasses and I think it really looks cute on him. :) But I prefer him without the glasses because that's his natural look. Either way, he still looks good. And I still love him. When we were about to go home, he got disappointed when he knew that I didn't buy medicine for my cough. So he bought some for me. Thank you baby and until now I'm still sorry :) ♥


Next day, December 28, my first time to cook for someone (aside from my family). When he told me he would be having lunch in our house before he brings me to work, my initial reaction was, "PATAY." =)) And then I thought that would be a good opportunity to own up to my promise that I would one day cook for him. I decided to cook spaghetti. I did my best. I hope he was satisfied :| He said he was. I hope that's for real. HAHAHA! Later that night, he fetched me from work then we went to Starbucks. We strolled. And it was the most enjoyable stroll in my life. And that was the last time we saw each other that year. ♥



Last November 2011, I asked God for a sign--that if Daniel would be able to go with me to a church activity on December 3, I would say yes to him on January 3, 2012. So I told him about the event. I mentioned it to him only once. Because if it's really God's plan that he would go, he will be able to go even without me repeating it to him over and over. A few days before December 3, I kept praying hard that he would be able to go because that, for me, may be the turning point. Evening of December 2, he told me that he would be able to go. I still didn't expect because a lot of things may happen in a few hours. I didn't want to expect until we are already at the venue. Honestly, I found it hard to expect because it was too good to be true. I was overwhelmed. December 3 came...I wore the shirt his mom gave me...He fetched me from work...We went to Greenbelt...He bought clothes for my aunt's birthday party on the 13th...We ate at May Grace...We went to the BIG 7 Event at CCF Makati--THE SIGN. I was ecstatic by the time we stepped on the grounds of CCF Makati. My heart couldn't stop leaping for joy. I couldn't explain it. At the same time, I couldn't express it because I shouldn't tell him. I was planning to surprise him on January 3. ♥



I was worried we wouldn't see each other on January 3. Our schedules were in conflict and I saw no way that we could meet up. I didn't want to do it over the phone, through a text message or anything not face-to-face. I was losing hope. I thought maybe it isn't meant to be. Dramatic but true. Haha.

Around December 31, my high school friend, Michelle, and I decided to have a mini reunion. She asked me where and when we could have it. I suddenly thought that it could be THE CHANCE that Daniel and I could meet up even for just a very short while. I suggested that we have our reunion on January 2 at Resorts World. That way, Daniel would be finished with his work by the time we finish watching a movie. The plan is set. :D

I told him about the plan. He told me that he would agree only if he would be the one to bring me home. GREAT! I would have more time ♥♥♥. Thank you, Lord! :)

January 2 came. I had dinner and movie with my friends. At around 12:20am on January 3, 2012, we met up at Resorts World. He didn't have any idea about my plan. He said he was hungry. Another YES for me. That would mean MUCH MORE OPPORTUNITY to say my piece. HAHAHA! When we got to KFC, the place where we sat didn't really give me the kind of mood that I wanted to have. There were some people around and there was this big cockroach. I thought to myself that I wouldn't let that opportunity pass without succeeding with my plan. We left KFC.

We got inside the premises of California Garden Square. Before getting out of his car, I told him I have to tell him something. He was surprised. I couldn't explain the expression on his face that time. I don't know if he got sad or terrified of what I was about to say or wala lang. I told him to turn off the radio because he might not hear me well. That made him even more nervous. It took me quite a while before I spilled it out. I did my best to look sad and worried also but I don't know if I succeeded on that part haha. I planned on scaring him first so that he will really be surprised when I tell him the real thing. And then I finally said, "Wag mo na ako ligawan.........." His reaction got worse. I felt the anxiousness that came over him. He asked why. At around 1:30am, I said, "..........kasi sinasagot na kita" ♥♥♥ He couldn't believe it. I couldn't believe it either. He even asked me if I was serious and if it was for real. So cute! :) He was so happy. I was so happy. We were both soooooo happy!! ♥♥♥ Until now, the whole event is still very vivid in my mind. We tried taking a picture to capture THE MOMENT. ♥♥♥

January 6, 2012 -- our first official date as an official couple ♥♥♥. It was one of our ever-perfect dates. He fetched me from work and toured me around their place. His territory naman this time. I'm so happy about the cellphone protector that we bought. He told me that the pink one is better. So i got the pink one. It's so prettyyyyy! ^_^ Then he made taste this super delicious empanadita. Yummm!

The best part of that day was when he brought me to their house. Upon entering their gate, his mom was already there gladly welcoming me. She's so sweet. I am not surprised why her son is the way he is right now.♥ I thought it would just be a simple dinner with his parents. But it wasn't. Two of his friends were there and their moms. When his 2 friends arrived, they have 1 artificial rose each and this very sweet cartolina...I really felt the warmth and sweetness of everyone. They didn't fail to make me feel welcome. Everything that his mom cooked was HEAVEN. Now that's what you call a dream date that came true.♥♥♥


January 7, 2012 -- Our second official date which, again, was one of our ever-perfect dates. This time it was with my mom. He parked his card here at CGS and then we commuted going to Megamall. We window-shopped and then went to Dairy Queen. After DQ, Daniel and I watched "Enteng ng Ina Mo" while mom goes to St. Francis Tiangge. After the movie, we continued walking around. He bought new shoes for work. And then we met up with mom again. My baby made the 3 of us have dinner at Mey Lin Pot & Noodle House. ♥
We walked home. We stayed in his car for a while before he left. HAHAHA! HAHAHAHAHA!
Nope, it doesn't stand for Singapore. What it stands for is our little secret ;) HAHAHA!


January 8, 2012 -- He fetched me from work and brought me home before fetching his sister from work . And then.........HAHAHAHAHA.....he left ♥

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Baby, I know you'll be reading this. I wrote this because of your request. I love you so much! I know you know that. And like what I told you before, I hope my actions would be loud enough to make you how much I love you.♥

Before the year ends...

I can say that 2011 was my year and I am very thankful to God for that. In 2011, I graduated, I got a nice job, I was able to let go what I should have let go a long time ago, and I found someone who loves me so much and who I love so much as well. I can say the last one is the highlight of the year :)

Indeed, 2011 is a blessing. And I am expectantly waiting for 2012 to be the same. :)

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It has been quite a long time since I last blogged and there have been a lot of things that happened that deserved to be placed here. But I wasn't able to :( I'll just post pictures anyway :D



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We haven't seen each other for days and it's killing meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! But the last time we saw each other was perfect :D I met his parents and I think it went well. I had so much fun! :) I can't wait for Wednesday. We shall finally see each other again. Yey! And I have a surprise for him. Since I am fully aware that he will be reading this, I won't write here what my surprise it. Haha. Kala mo ah! :p