Day 10

June 30, 2011

Last day of the month! :D How fast time flies.

I was late a while ago for my 6am duty :( Screw the defective MRT :((

This day was quite shocking but uberly GREAT :D

After work, Love (yup, that's her beautiful name) and I went to Market-Market to eat, window-shop and have a back massage. I looooove spending time with her :D

When I was on my way home, nadulas ako sa stairs ng MRT. My bone nearest to my butt hit the steps. It's so painful until now :(

Hmm. Then I got home. Finally. I thought I was never gonna get out alive from the MRT. I felt like I was gonna get crushed :))

My bebe Jessy chatted me. Is that the right term? Chatted? HAHAHA. Anyway, i don't know what to say about it. Haha. But I'm quite happy. Oooooh. I love you Jessy Ong, my twin :D

Day 9

June 29, 2011

It's our simulation once again. I still don't have my uniform :(( It arrived about an hour before my out. Haha.

I saw him! My crush! Mr. Hayden Kho look-alike. But I can say that he was more handsome the first time I saw him. Haha.

Day 7 & 8

June 27, 2011

WORK WORK WORK! As usual, i had fun at work :D My colleagues and my bosses make me look forward going to work every single day :D

June 28, 2011

It's supposed to be the 5th year anniversary of our 100th day together. And I was planning something for this day. But I guess it isn't meant to happen :]

Day 6

June 26, 2011

Mom, Kuya Renjay, Mama Aida and I went to Bulacan today for the wake of Tito Andy, my dad's youngest brother. He died a few days ago :/

Our trip there was both happy and sad. Sad of course due to the death of my uncle. But happy because I was able to spend time with my cousins there :)

When I got home, I sent him an e-mail. I sent it through e-mail because it was quite long. And because maybe he wouldn't like it if I would still text him. Ok na yun. Although I am fully aware that he might not even be able to read it. Well, at least I've said my piece. And I'm contented with that :)

Day 5

June 25, 2011

Thank God my work got suspended today. Because of that, I was able to attend the conference in our church entitled, "The Art of Being A Woman..." ALL the topics were very interesting and full of practical and most especially Biblical truths that every woman ought to know. It also helped me with the situation i'm in.

I was so blessed today. Jenny and Debra were there too :D

Day 4

June 24, 2011

We were dismissed early due to the typhoon but some of us hung-out for a while at Starbucks. They wanted to drink something hot because of the cold and cozy weather. I just ordered cinnamon swirl. I love cinnamon :)

Fine. I would admit that I thought of him for a moment today. I thought if he was ok, if he got stranded, if he was able to get home safely. Stuff like that. I guess it's normal if you care for someone, right? It doesn't go away that fast. Maybe. Or just for me.

Day 3

June 23, 2011

Nothing much happened today. I didn't think of him. Until now. Haha. Well, fine he crossed my mind quite a few times but I always catch myself. And whenever I do, I immediately stop myself. Just like the song says, "When I caught myself, I had to stop myself...". I'm actually starting to like that song. Haha.

Day 2

June 22, 2011

My eyes are swollen. Jhoy, one of my officemates, even noticed it. Because of that, she found out I cried.

But I was so surprised when I woke up. I felt an indescribable peace, joy and contentment in my heart. I know it's God's answer to my prayer. Yes, I still felt lonely at times. But it's a good thing I always catch myself.

I always tell myself things like, "fine, if he doesn't like me, fine. Maybe somebody else does...or somebody else will", " "kung kami talaga, edi kami kahit pa maghiwalay kami sa ngayon. Pero kung hindi, hindi talaga kahit ano pang pilit.", "Edi wag. Wag pilitin ang ayaw."... Stuff like that. Haha. Sabi nga ni Kuya Charles, "Parang palaman lang sa tinapay ah...PEANUT BITTER!" :))

I was able to chat with one of my male friends back in high school. I can say he's one of the "good guys" back in the days and even until now. I shared to him what I just went through. He gave good and encouraging advice. And I really appreciate him for that :)

Day 1 (after being left)...

June 21, 2011

If we didn't break up, it would be our monthsary today.

He stopped texting me starting the previous day until this day. And then I asked him if we were gonna see each other. He said no. He said that we should stop seeing each other. It crushed my heart. Duh? Of course it did! Because I love him so much. But I didn't stop him from doing that because I love him that's why I have to set him free and because I know I couldn't stop him anyway. I cried while I was walking home. How pathetic.

He never texted me until then.

I don't know how else i could describe the pain that I went through when he said those words. I couldn't describe the anguish, bitterness and regret that accompanied me that night. All I was able to do was cry myself to sleep.

Every time I see you, I fall in love all over again.