Make or Break

It is now my third day here in Cardinal Santos hospital. Last Tuesday (August 23), I started to feel sick. My mom thought that I was just over-fatigue from Daniel. Hahahahaha. Seriously, she thought I was over-fatigue from work. So she just told me to rest since I was also on day-off that time. When she got home that night, my fever didn't go down. Instead, it went higher to the point that I was chilling to death haha. The next day mom decided to bring me here in this hospital to have my blood checked. After some tests, I was diagnosed of being positive in dengue.


This situation that we are facing right now made me realize a lot of things. First of all, it once again reminded of how faithful God is in providing for our needs and that He is in control. Last night, one of mom's friends handed her a paper. When mom looked at the paper, it was a receipt of the current charges that we already incurred, She already paid for it :')


Because of this incident, I've also come to realize who my true friends really are; who really loves and cares; who really went out of their way despite the distance; and who just says they care, get well soon, blah blah and that's it. YOUR ACTIONS ARE TOO LOUD I CAN'T EVEN HEAR WHAT YOU'RE SAYING.


My ever-loving and patient mom, my dad (even if he's away), my brother, yaya Aida, titos and titas, cousins, Daniel, Rocherrie, Love, Mike, Sir Joseph and mom's friends. I couldn't thank you enough for being so loving and supportive. My heart leaps for joy as I see each of you walk into the door. You give me strength and much more reason to really fight this sickness. You give me more reasons to fight for my life :') I don't know what I did to deserve to have you in my life. THANK YOU :')


I always do my best to show everyone especially my mom that I am ok, that I am strong and that I am not even affected too much because I don't want them to worry way too much. So when everybody's gone and mom's asleep, I cry. I wake up in the middle of the night or in the wee hours of the morning and cry. I cry not because I'm afraid of what could possibly happen to me. I cry because I'm afraid of hurting and breaking my family's heart and everyone's else who would be involved or affected. I've already caused enough troubles and heartaches to my family.


It's also mom's birthday today and I blame myself that she wouldn't be able to celebrate it the way she wants. Instead, she will just be stuck here in the hospital with me. But I am very thankful to my mom. Never did I see her frown or say or make any gesture that she doesn't like what she's doing. I love her so much! :)


Tonight is make or break. If my platelet count continues to go down, I shall be undergoing blood transfusion. But if it miraculously goes up, I might just be able to go home tomorrow :)

236.) Ang tunay na chicks hindi nagpapadala ng magaang na shoulder bag sa lalake.

Daniel, I remembered you when I saw this :p

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WALANG SIKRETONG HINDI NABUBUNYAG! :))

BUKING NA BUKING NA AKO! GRABE! HIYANG-HIYA NA AKO DAHIL NABABASA MO PALA,
DANIEL JOSEPH CAMUA,
ITONG BLOG KO!! :))

Akala ko pa naman master na ako sa pagtago ng sikreto. Pero sarili ko palang sikreto hindi ko kayang itago. Odiba napatagalog na ako tuloy. HAHAHA. Grabe lang talaga. Wala akong masabi kundi GRABE. Nakakahiyaaaaaaaaaa >.<

Oh well, but like what I always tell my friends and maybe everyone else, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. And I must be able to apply it in my life right NOW :)) Well, at least ngayon no more secrets. Is that good or bad? No more secrets means no more mystery. No more mystery means no more thrill. No more thrill means boring? :( Haay wag naman sana.

I really didn't expect we were gonna see each other today. But we did because he decided to pick me up after work :D I waited for him for quite a long time. I almost fell asleep on the chair where I was sitting as I waited for him. Haha. But that's ok :D

I tried my best to convince him to go to church with me, but he didn't because he had to be home early :| But I understand. I just hope that he would nalang next time :)

So there, he ate at Subway in Podium. While we were there, I had the biggest shock of my life. I faced the biggest embarrassment of my life--HE TOLD ME HE HAD BEEN READING THIS BLOG!! >.< I don't know how I would and how I should react. I just ended up laughing and covering my face the whole time. Grabe talagaaaa! :O

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Dear Daniel,
Oh well, since YOU might be reading this pagkagising mo, GOOD MORNING! :) O ayan ah, nagsulat pa rin ako :p I will always stick to my word. Basta don't forget our deal about this and about saying bad words ;) About saying bad words, I really didn't want to choose that punishment but I think we need to go to that extent para matigil na. It's for your own good :) It will be hard for the BOTH OF US, hindi lang sayo. Kaya better be good! Haha. I know naman you are good :) Kaya mo yan! :D I am always praying for you and will continue to do so :) Ikaw talaga aaah! :p PH ;)

P.S: Sorry I wasn't able to turn off the laptop in 10 minutes because mom wanted to read na rin the blog and I had to finish this :p

Thank God it's Saturday! :) [August 20, 2011]

I thought this day wasn't going to be great because I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Woke up kinda late, got frustrated when I saw myself in the mirror, bad hair day and took a cab with an irritating driver.

Work was KINDA busy. We had quite a number of guests (still under simulation). Compared to before when we don't see people aside from our colleagues, we find the simulation period a little exciting. Haha.

He picked me up here in the hotel after work. We were supposed to meet at BHS but because it suddenly rained so hard, he decided to pick me up. Rhea also rode with us going there :)

We met up with Pao, Ciara and Enzo at Silk then headed to Marta's. I asked him to guess which brownie/cupcake I will be ordering without any clue. And I got really surprised when he had it right on his first try :D I had a GREAT time with them. Meeting Enzo (finally!) was nice. Seeing Pao again for the longest time made me miss our bonding more. Being with Ciara once again made me excited. And most especially, spending time with Daniel made the whole day perfect :)

He was about to bring me home when he suddenly brought up a very interesting topic to talk about--how we "met". The conversation started just when we were already near our place so he decided to stay a little longer. We stayed at the Ala Eh coffee shop in CGS and stayed there for not more than an hour. We talked about A LOT of things. Very, very, very interesting things and topics that I think we should really know about each other.

Then he brought me home. As promised, I bought him 3 bottles of his favorite soy milk before he left :) Then we said our goodbyes :]

Having that conversation with him made me like him more. The way he thinks shows his level of maturity which I really admire. I don't get sad whenever we have to part ways. Instead, it makes me look forward to see him again :)

Crazy, Stupid Love :)

So he fetched me last night from work. I waited for only 15 minutes. He drives really fast. We had dinner at Chic-Boy near our place. It was fuuun :)

He fetched me a while ago around 1pm. He was supposed to leave his car here and then we will just take the MRT going to Trinoma. But it rained as soon as he got here so he just decided to bring his car.

We knew that we were gonna arrive way before the others. But we didn't expect that they would arrive sooo late. We ended up touring around the whole mall. But so what? I did it with him anyway :)

Afterwards, we met up with Ciara, Jessy and her friends. We stayed with them for a couple of minutes. The three of us then ate at Yellow Cab. We had our dessert at Stick House. We said goodbye to Jessy who was at Jollibee with her friends. I'm sad she's leaving again. But I'm also happy because this might be what's best for her, for my twin :)

We accompanied Ciara to the terminal where she will be riding going home. Then he brought me home. I handed him the 3 bottles of soy milk (which I hope I could give him everytime we see each other) :) Then I walked him back to his car.

Whenever he brings me home, he never fails to walk me to our unit, say hi to mom and/or to yaya Aida. And I really really appreciate that. I like him more and more as I get to know him and as I get to spend time with him. I couldn't explain and express the joy in my heart since the time we started "dating". If only I knew I would meet a man like him, I should've waited. I shouldn't have wasted my time, efforts and love on someone else. Right now I am actually thankful to my ex for leaving me. Because if he didn't, I wouldn't have met him. I wouldn't have known him more. I wouldn't have the opportunity to be close to Mr. Daniel Joseph Camua :)

Quickie :)

Just a quick update. It's been more than a week since I last updated. Nothing much happened the past week except when my friends and I had a Friday night out at Republiq. HE was there too! :)

At first, I was too shy to show myself to him in that kind of place. I don't even know why. But we ended up seeing each other. I introduced him to my friends and he introduced me to his.

When he was with us, I couldn't dance. I couldn't even sway :)) Super nahihiya ako. Naninigas ako sa hiya :)) Then he said he had to go back to his friends. As soon as he left, I started dancing not knowing that he looked back and saw me! KAKAHIYAAAAA! :))

When my friends and I were about to leave, he met with us then accompanied me to Ciara's car. He was so sleepy. It was alreayd around 3am that time and he still has work by 5am :| He was sleepy, tired and hungry :(

We shall be seeing each other tonight. We both have a 2pm-10pm shift today. He will pick me up here in the office then bring me home. I'm excited :D

We shall also be together tomorrow for our "last" bonding with Jessy. She will be leaving for Singapore on Thursday :(

That's all for now. I'm kinda enjoying the PM shift haha. Byeee :)

Thank God it's Sunday! :)

Ok so I got sad last Friday when he told me that our Saturday plan would be cancelled because his schedule on that day suddenly got changed :| We were supposed to watch a movie then have dinner buffet with his friends at MOA. Then he just attempted to fetch me and mom from Megamall and bring us home lang pero hindi natuloy. But that's ok. I want him to rest na rin naman and it would really be very impractical for him :]

Saturday came. After work, Love and I passed by Conti's to buy some pastries as pasalubong for our family. Then we went to our respective homes. I had my nails done when I got home, but it immediately got chipped off kaninang morning :| Cheap nail polish :| haha. I'll just have it fixed tomorrow :]

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So far, this day is the BESTEST (if there's such a word) that I had with him :D Finally after so many pleas, I got him to say yes in going to church with me and my family. I really really really praise God for that :) When he arrived here in our home to fetch me, I gave him 3 bottles of soy milk that I promised him :) After church, mom and kuya separated from us na. Mom made beso to him when she said goodbye to him! At naunahan pa ako ng nanay ko! :)) We had lunch at Bigby's. As usual, our conversation was super fun even if there were times that our topic wasn't that meaningful haha. But because the conversation was made with him, it is always meaningful :D We bought ice cream from Dairy Queen, walked around Podium and then he brought me home. Before leaving, he said goodbye to mommy first. I accompanied him to his car. Before leaving, BINESO NIYA RIN AKO! :)) I was super surprised!! Hahaha. And kilig of course :p Haaay. We continued texting when he got home. I'm so happy because he had fun in our UBE today :)

I really admire him. I admire him as a whole person. I admire him as a hotelier (based on his stories). I admire him as a son when we were talking over the phone and he told me to excuse him for a bit because he wanted to welcome his dad who just arrived. I admire him as a brother when he told me he would bring his sister to the hotel where she works in. I admire him for who he is and how he is as a person. I never thought I would meet or even get close to a man like him. If I only knew I would, I should have waited. But I know that everything happens for a reason. I know that God allows things to happen in His perfect time. I can wait and I will wait on God :)

Thank God it's Wednesday :)

Last night I slept at the Best Western Premier F1 Hotel--the hotel I work in. We are asked to check-in there during the simulation to observe and look for areas of improvement. I was supposed to be in my room alone but thank God that our Front Office Manager (FOM) allowed my Love Orense to sleepover in my room. When I got back to my room, I was so touched when I saw a letter she left on my bed thanking me that I allowed her to stay in my room.

My shift the whole week is 6am-2pm. Will be having my day-off on Sunday :D HE gave me a wake up call this morning at 430am. I thought he would forget. But he didn't! Yey! :D

HE picked me up after work :D Had fun in the heavy traffic at EDSA. Toured around Shangri-la Mall. Ate at Wendy's. Had fun in the car while listening to his music. Then he dropped me home. SUUUUUUPER FUN! :D

My ex texted me last night until this afternoon. I was kinda surprised. Nangamusta lang naman. But what I was more surprised with was how I felt when we were texting--NOTHING. I didn't feel ANYTHING anymore. Hindi ako kinilig, hindi rin ako nalungkot. It was just like texting and catching up with an old friend. Thank You, Lord, for this freedom :)

Anyway, back to HIM. My message to him:
Dear D****l, I'm sorry if I don't want to show you this blog. I'm writing this so that you would at least understand why I hide it from you IF EVER you get to read this. I don't want you to read my blog because of the super wrong grammar :)) And I also don't want to let you see this because it is primarily about YOU :p HAHAHA. The stories that I say hear MAY not be exactly what happened but at least it is how I wanted it to happen or to mean. HAHAHA. Sorry naman. But I really hope you won't see this. At least for now and the near future. Kakahiya talaga! :)) Thank you for a while ago. Thank you for everything :)

I'm so sleepy right now. But I shouldn't sleep anymore so that I could sleep early later :| Today was perfect :D